I found me????

Why am i still lost in thought?
       Everyone around, but still drifted apart...
Trying to find the purpose of my life,
       Just pondering over it won't ease my strife...
Why am i still here, i evermore ask
       Wondering how long all this will last...
Wish i could get the answers as lucid as i want,
       But god won't pander to my innate haunt...
I have to go on, believing that he'll bow,
       The life's dreaded purpose will one day i know...